NOTE: I wrote this article last night when I was tired from trying to clean up the mess I made when I tried to seal in the artwork with a special sealing spray only to end up smearing the artwork, ruining it. I got incredibly upset. I had to race to a local store and buy nail polish remover and use hand sanitizers to remove all that paint marker residue and start all over. The results shown in the photo above were much, much better than the first time I drew the Easter Egg. What a relief. I had to get some sleep to rest my brain so I can clear my thoughts a bit, really get a hold of myself, and think about what I’ve been doing and what I can do to improve this situation. Here’s a revised version of the article with additional photos and better thoughts about what I was doing to fix Grover and how determined I am to do things right.
Within the past a few weeks, there has been times when I had to ask myself, “What did I put $3,200 down for!?” every time I faced frustration and emotional and psychological pain every time I tried fixing Grover’s issues only to discover how unsatisfying were the results and notice some flaws and tiny specks within my work that compels me to have a do-over.
Seriously, what did I put 3,200 dollars down for? It wasn’t to buy a harp to fix whenever there’s a cosmetic, structural, or mechanical boo boo come up that needs addressed. No, it was to buy a harp so I can play it and enjoy its music and be proud of owning. But as they say, [Poop] happens. The accident that happened over a year ago while I was trying to change some worn out strings has giving me some real heartaches, challenges, and emotional pain and sorrow. But on the plus side, this ordeal is teaching me to be more responsible for the care and well being of any large concert pedal harp I own and plan to own. This is giving me a lot of experience in learning how to better handle the instrument responsibly and how to take great care of the instrument the very best I can without trouble.
I have to admit, it’s not easy. But I can do this. Besides, the only person capable of fixing Grover’s cosmetic issues around here is ME! And my efforts to fix Grover is turning out to be not so bad after all despite all the strong emotions of fear of permanently damaging the harp beyond repair I ended up harboring throughout the whole ordeal.
With the pandemic still going around and no one locally available to help repair the instrument cosmetically and professionally, I just had to resort to fixing Grover’s cosmetic issues myself without overdoing it and making things worse for me and my harp. I admit it seems it was becoming horribly addictive for me to make unnecessary repairs and makeovers that would subsequently end in disaster, just when I thought I had it made and the issue is finally done and over with, and find myself on the verge of becoming an uncontrollable crying, tantrum-throwing, bawl baby who is none other than me, The Owosso Harpist who’s supposed to be the proud owner and professional player of a pedal harp, not a harp amateur, breaker or wrecker!
I want to play the harp! Not wreck it! Not break it! Not mishandle it in every way! I want to be a highly responsible harpist capable of affording all of my harps without any problems! Not some careless, accident prone crazed idiot that can’t be trusted with any kind of harp whether it’s old or new, gold, natural or a different kind of finish, immaculate or well worn. I want to be the kind of harpist that would make myself and others proud and joyful and have this experience be a blessing to all of us.
I take full responsibility and blame for that accident that occurred over a year ago. And It’s all up to me to make sure that what happened over a year ago don’t ever happen again and prevent other similar disastrous mishaps such as neck and soundboard breaking from ever occurring.